Butterflies

For those of you who follow this blog (even though I rarely update it!), you might remember a post entitled "Excited!" from a couple months ago. I wrote it while Aron was still in Wyoming and the details of what our life would look like when he returned were unknown and I was, as the post said, excited about what new adventures God might have in store for our family.

Now we're back in North Carolina, moved out of the house we were renting, in faith that God was moving us somewhere else (whether that would be down the street or across the country we didn't know), most of our stuff is in storage and we're living in the upstairs part of a family from church's home (which is such an amazing and generous gift to us!!!), and I have to admit that the excitement is all but gone. What has replaced it is butterflies-in-my-tummy nervousness.

Why? Well, Aron hasn't had a job since leaving TMobile at the end of May. He's applied for many different positions all across the country and has put his resume out on a ministry website. A camp job opportunity was mentioned to him and got us excited because we wouldn't have to leave the area in which we're living and because of the opportunity for Aron to learn much about camping ministry...BUT, we've not heard any more about if/when it'll be his job. Then, despite the numerous Youth Pastor positions he applied for, a church in CALIFORNIA found his resume and contacted HIM about the job. He had the phone interview last night and while it was supposed to last only 15 minutes, it lasted over 30! The butterflies are dancing!

My heart sinks at the thought of the camp job not coming through and the thought of moving across the whole country. I mean, there are so many reasons (in MY mind) why God HAS to let the camp job work out. There are so many connections that have been made with this camp throughout the time we've lived in NC....they're even the ones who gave us our minivan! Now, the church in CA hasn't officially offered the job, but the interview went really well and so my mind has gone round and round with the possibility of it and the butterflies are doing the rhumba! And yet, the Lord says:

"For My thoughts are not your thoughts,

neither are My ways your ways,"

declares the Lord.

"As the heavens are higher than the earth,

so are My ways higher than your ways

and My thoughts than your thoughts."

Isaiah 55: 8-9

As God reminds me of this fact, the butterflies slow to a waltz. They're still there but they are calmer when I remember that God is in control of my life, of my family's life, and that His ways are always for the ultimate good.